eeep

If I had xanax right now, I believe I might be gobbling it up. I'm all nervous and social-anxiety-like!! I feel that lump in my throat and can't quite swallow, even though I'm drinking a big glass of water at the moment. (And eating butterfingers. Mmm. Butterfinger. Fun size! Everything should come in fun size, really.)

The cause for the anxiety: After posting that most recent update blogpost here, I updated my FB status to inform all my former blogbuddies(tm) that I'd actually posted something here. I don't even know if you all are still here on blogger; it's been since last summer that I poked around and caught up on all your blogs. Anyway, then, I had a few different current friends comment/message me asking about this blog. So, I told them about it. One in particular, my new friend Noah (whose pic I posted with me in that last entry) and now I am feeling all verklempt! Because so much of this blog encompasses my "old" life, and he is part of my "new" life, and seeing as how we are still new friends, I don't really know how he'll take to reading about all that former life stuff. Eeeep!

I did make him promise to read from the very beginning in 2004 (poor guy, lol) and all the comments too, since the comments are where the conversation happens. :-)

love meagan