attention

I am so beyond hopeless in the kitchen.

I just tried to open a can of pears using the garlic press.

muffins

I bought my first Spanx today. If you don't know what that is (if so, you are most likely a male), then you might as well browse on over to the next blog right about now.

Woohoo what an adventure. It was seriously hard work getting this thing on. I'm sure Mackie was quite entertained as he watched my various contortions. First one leg, then the next, then pull, stretch, shimmy, adjust. Oh my gosh. Is this really worth it? We'll find out once I put the rest of the clothes on and see if there's any difference. :-D

Ha. All these things to make it easier not to exercise and eat right. Life sure is weird.

love meagan

mein haus

Mackie and I just got home from a lovely little 2.5-day trip to Portland. I stayed with Katie and that was so very sweet to me, because it has been years since I've been there to stay with her. Lately, it's always been a hotel with Mike. This trip, I drove up there instead of flying (because I wanted to bring Mackie) and basically just did a lot of visiting with friends. Nothing particularly life-shattering (besides, of course, the fabulous Gustav's fondue) nor introspective. Just...mellow.

I bought a pillow at Ikea last night. Therefore, I am SO excited to go to bed tonight after my show.

Got home, got the car unpacked (wow, I bought a lot of random little stuff at Ikea and Trader Joe's :-), opened all the mail (2 new books! Yay!), and am now sitting at my desk catching up on all my friends' updates via facebook, blogger, myspace, mtf, etc. and listening to all the wonderful new mellow music I "stole" from Katie--Jack Johnson, Regina Spektor, KT Tunstall, Five o Clock People. Nice.

Oh yeah, and I'm in my robe. I instantly changed clothes the second I got home. I have to be at the theater in Ashland in about 90 minutes. I should really start getting dressed eventually. :-)

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apples

I just got home from a fun late night (after the show) of playing "Apples to Apples" with the Boyz. What a great new game! I've heard it mentioned many times, but this is the first time I've played it. It might be right up there with "Catch Phrase" to me. ;-) (everyone who's been to parties at my house knows how much I love "Catch Phrase")


Mackie just ate an earplug.

Q street

I'm watching Johnny & The Sprites right now. It is terribly annoying. But man, oh man, John Tartaglia is just oh so cute!

love meagan

p.s. John Tartaglia is the original Rod from the Broadway musical Avenue Q.

p.p.s. The title of this mini-blog post is "Q Street" because Mike overheard a woman on an airplane a couple years ago going on and on about this musical "Q Street" (it's actually called "Avenue Q") and how terribly unappropriate it is. Hahaha

mice

For Christmas I got a wireless mouse. I love it. But....

Big problem with wireless mouse: I keep losing it.

boom

Okay. So part 2 of my blogging about my most recent nyc trip is just gonna have to wait. Real life is getting in the way of me chattering blithely along on here without telling you what's really up.

To make a vvvveeeeerrrrrrryyyyyyy llllllloooooonnnnnnggggggg story short (very long story, got the picture?), a few weeks ago Mike and I were about to get divorced. But we're not. We're still figuring that part out. Divorce was never ever an option since we decided to get married 9 years ago, but there have been some foundational aspects of that commitment that he's broken. Aaaannnnd, not that it's all connected or anything {{sarcasm}}, this morning I skipped a couple classes and lessons as he and I were busy bees at a local recovery treatment center checking him in for a residential rehab program for the next month or so. Crazy, huh?

Since I suck at actual writing about personal stuff here in this blog, I'm just going to copy and paste the email I sent to my parents this morning and share that with you. I'd talked with them about the problems Mike and I had been experiencing recently, but hadn't really talked much about it with them. 'Cause, well, I don't talk about stuff. Yep, that's true. Okay, here's the email:

Hi parents, I just wanted to let you guys know that it's not likely anymore that Mike and I will split up. As he told you on Saturday (in such an oh so casual way :-) ), he's got a big problem with drinking again and has decided to do something big about that. We went together to Genesis Recovery Center this morning and he's checked in for who knows how long (a month maybe?). In his mind, that is the biggest problem and what needs immediate attention. Which is quite true. In my mind, the fact of his unfaithfulness is still humongous and I want you to know that I am not just ignoring that because of the alcoholism. And he knows that. It's not about a lack of forgiveness or bitterness on my part, nor a disregarding of the alcoholism. It's just facing a fact. So that still needs to be worked out between he and I. But I'm not going to leave him right now at this point when he has made such a honest and healthy decision to work on this part of himself. Yes, I know it's not all about him, but this is something we are doing together. Sooooo....just thought I'd let you know. I'm sorry I'm not very open with you about all this and my life very often, like ever. It's not that I ever want to be denying anything or lying to you, because I really don't think that I am. It's just the way I choose to focus my attentions and heart and live a fairly drama-free life, even when life gets complicated. Thank you so much for all your support and love and prayers. I really do love you so much and don't know how in the world I would survive without you. That is another fact.

love meagan

So there you have it. Real life. Messy. Right here in the poppy isabella blog.

In other news, I realized this evening that I have no idea who the current vice president is. What kind of lousy American, am I? Do you know who the vice president is? You probably do; I have smart friends.

love meagan