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Okay. So part 2 of my blogging about my most recent nyc trip is just gonna have to wait. Real life is getting in the way of me chattering blithely along on here without telling you what's really up.

To make a vvvveeeeerrrrrrryyyyyyy llllllloooooonnnnnnggggggg story short (very long story, got the picture?), a few weeks ago Mike and I were about to get divorced. But we're not. We're still figuring that part out. Divorce was never ever an option since we decided to get married 9 years ago, but there have been some foundational aspects of that commitment that he's broken. Aaaannnnd, not that it's all connected or anything {{sarcasm}}, this morning I skipped a couple classes and lessons as he and I were busy bees at a local recovery treatment center checking him in for a residential rehab program for the next month or so. Crazy, huh?

Since I suck at actual writing about personal stuff here in this blog, I'm just going to copy and paste the email I sent to my parents this morning and share that with you. I'd talked with them about the problems Mike and I had been experiencing recently, but hadn't really talked much about it with them. 'Cause, well, I don't talk about stuff. Yep, that's true. Okay, here's the email:

Hi parents, I just wanted to let you guys know that it's not likely anymore that Mike and I will split up. As he told you on Saturday (in such an oh so casual way :-) ), he's got a big problem with drinking again and has decided to do something big about that. We went together to Genesis Recovery Center this morning and he's checked in for who knows how long (a month maybe?). In his mind, that is the biggest problem and what needs immediate attention. Which is quite true. In my mind, the fact of his unfaithfulness is still humongous and I want you to know that I am not just ignoring that because of the alcoholism. And he knows that. It's not about a lack of forgiveness or bitterness on my part, nor a disregarding of the alcoholism. It's just facing a fact. So that still needs to be worked out between he and I. But I'm not going to leave him right now at this point when he has made such a honest and healthy decision to work on this part of himself. Yes, I know it's not all about him, but this is something we are doing together. Sooooo....just thought I'd let you know. I'm sorry I'm not very open with you about all this and my life very often, like ever. It's not that I ever want to be denying anything or lying to you, because I really don't think that I am. It's just the way I choose to focus my attentions and heart and live a fairly drama-free life, even when life gets complicated. Thank you so much for all your support and love and prayers. I really do love you so much and don't know how in the world I would survive without you. That is another fact.

love meagan

So there you have it. Real life. Messy. Right here in the poppy isabella blog.

In other news, I realized this evening that I have no idea who the current vice president is. What kind of lousy American, am I? Do you know who the vice president is? You probably do; I have smart friends.

love meagan