googlewhacking

I saw a segment on the today show this week about a one-man off-broadway show about googlewhacking.

I googled poppy isabella and there were actually 11 hits!

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dinner

So, in my entry earlier this evening I talked about my sadness with not being able to go out to dinner. I even called Applebee's and tried to convince them to let me do their take-out food by paying over the phone (I have the card number, just not the card.). I told them I wanted to place the order and have someone else come pick it up so I wouldn't have to show them the actual card. Wankers.

I decided to go to the grocery store and just buy some damn food. Grocery shopping can be so overwhelming sometimes. I think I even whimpered out loud a couple times as I wandered through the aisles. I was looking for real food, food that I could make a dinner for myself with. I don't really know how to shop this way. I know how to shop for a party. I don't know how to shop for general every day culinary-ness (I'm sure there's a word for that).

So after what felt like forever I finally came home with noodles, white sauce, red sauce (in case I wished I'd bought red instead of the white I usually like), romaine lettuce, one tomato, , cheese, pillsbury tube of bread dough (mmmmm), and a bottle of champagne (to make mimosas of course). So I ended up having quite the feast all by myself. I think it was even an actual balanced meal since I put leftover from Christmas turkey on my salad. Yes! I had all the food groups. This is exciting because that never ever happens for me. Preparing food at home is such a messy hassle for me; it's rarely worth it.

I also bought a few random other food things, nothing so exciting worth mentioning here. Like all the above was so exciting. Shut up.

OH! And I got a video rental membership at the grocery store! This is a good thing because I have late fees at all the Blockbusters. :-( I rarely rent movies because I'm always in rehearsals for something. Well not anymore! So tonight I rented "Garden State" and "DeLovely", and I bought "Saved" because it was only $4.99. I started "Garden State" while cooking and eating my lovely dinner. I'm not totally into it yet. I've heard it compared to "Lost in Translation" often, which, like this movie, I really really wanted to see and then was quite disappointed. Yes, I see all the wonderful things about the relationships and all that, but in general it's just too slow for me. I need a plot--an introduction, a problem, a climax, etc. Not just a bunch of people talking slow. Sorry. Anyway, I am taking a break from "Garden State" right now because I knew I would have emails from Mike. And I did! Yay! And I just got another one!

The movie I bought, "Saved", is a DVD and that is a cool thing because even though my TV doesn't have a DVD player guess who does?! Poppy isabella! So as soon as "Garden State" ends or I give up on it I will take my sweet new poppy to bed with me and we'll watch a movie. Now doesn't that sound fun? You just stop your dirty minds right now.

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colin farrell's gross

My new 'puter's here!!!! It's name is poppy isabella. Now I need some photos of poppies for the desktop, since all that Dell comes with is tulips. And tulips are not the same as poppies. I want a duck named poppy and Mike keeps telling me I can't so instead I will name my new 'puter poppy. It is a laptop which is exciting because it is kind of chilly in my house right now and poppy is warming my legs. In addition to all the other reasons laptops are exciting. poppy is RED. This is the most exciting thing. All Mike would tell me about this surprise is that it's electronic and it's red. I didn't know computers came in red! (except for imacs and those are dumb). I just realized I used the word "exciting" way too much in that paragraph. Following is a fun email conversation Mike and I had this afternoon:

MAGN: my 'puters here! my 'puters here! my 'puters here! i gotta go get it!!!!!! love magan.
MO: you're so excited you spelled your own name wrong!

So now I have a fun evening of bonding with poppy isabella.

Computers named poppy are much more useful than ducks named poppy.

I'd really like to go to a restaurant tonight. I would like to go to Applebee's and have oriental chicken salad (mmmmmmm my favorite!) and a martini (mmmmmmm or two!). But I'm not sure if I'm in the "going to a restaurant alone" mood right now. And I don't know who to call to join me. Usually I don't mind going to restaurants alone at all. In fact, I love to. But that's when I have stuff to work on and can spread out my music or whatever and be focused. It's not fun to just sit there alone and watch yourself eat. I don't have any music to work on right now. No musicals coming up to research.

GRRRRRRRRRRRRR and I just remembered that I gave Mike my debit card to take to LA with him since he thought he'd lost his. So I couldn't go out to eat anyway! GRRRRRRRRRR!!!!!!

(lenny kravitz is on right now and madeline is splashing and making even more noise than usual. hmmm.)

did I mention that poppy is red?

This has been a slow blogging time lately. Of the blogbuddies(tm) it seems Erin and I are the only ones around. Haven't heard from David, Tanya, or Mike for quite a while. WAIT. Let me rephrase those last two sentences..... Of teh blogbuddies(tm) it seems Grumpy and MamaPiano are the only ones around. Haven't heard from CharlieBrown, Eponine, or Mo for quite a while. Well, of course I've heard from Mo, just not through blog-world. We miss you guys! Don't leave Erin and I in this world all alone with our strangers! Speaking of, Erin's had quite a few strangers commenting on her blog lately. Yay for Erin! I bet it's all Avril's beautiful photos drawing them in.

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christmas

I just realized I posted five entries yesterday and didn't even mention that major holiday that was just the day before! I do love Christmas. Really. This year was so mellow and uneventful that I guess I forgot about it so quickly. Mike and I didn't even go to church on Christmas Eve. Weird. We're lazy lately. I mean, we work really hard in our actual careers (well, lately he much more than I!) like when we're actually at work. But anything social we just don't care to make the effort. Hopefully this is just a stage. It would suck if we become those kind of wanker couples that want only to be together and don't care about anyone else. We will not. I promise. So like with church Christmas Eve we had two choices: 1) bring our family to New Song with us which is stressful because, even though we are all Christians, New Song is much more charismatic than their church and I feel like they are always mocking it even though I know intellectually that they are not, they are just pointing out the differences. Choice 2) go with our family to Community Bible Church which is stressful because I grew up there and get really tired of people who still see me as the two-year-old I was when they first met me and expect me to catch them up on my whole life in three minutes. I am being so cynical about all this right now. Really, the point of a Christmas Eve service is the amazing time of worship because Jesus loves us so much. I just let all these other things get in the way. Good thing our God is a forgiving God and faith in Him is not based on "doing".

By 5:30 we realized we weren't going to make it to any church since we'd spent so much of the day just sitting around and didn't have dinner totally ready anyway. Oh well. Our family (my mom, my dad, his mom, my grandma, their neighbor) were coming to our house for dinner. I love having dinner parties! This was a little one with just the seven of us. I didn't even get to use all of my dishes. (Man, I am so shallow sometimes!) It was so nice and mellow and comfortable. Comfortable. The comfort of just being with family and no concerns. I am so safe.

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peter and sarah

Yeah yeah yeah!!!! Did I catch your attention with your name in the title?? HA YHA HAH HA HA!!!!!!! Peter and/or Sarah!! Are you guys reading my blog? I know you are! At least I know Sarah is. She told me so! If you continue to read without commenting I (and all my blogbuddies(tm)) will officially dub you both "blogstalkers". And let me tell you, that is not a good thing to be dubbed. Dubbed. dubbed. Whatever that means. Weird word. Like tape copying. And lip syncing.

Anyway. Peter & Sarah. Do you still read this?? Let me know! Please!

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p.s. for erin, tanya, mike, david, kevin, eric, tanya, lizbeth-marie, emilyrenee, and any other of my blog readers-----obviously this entry is specifically written for Peter and Sarah. I love you guys!

mike

MIKE!!!

!!!!!!!

ARE YOU OUT THERE!!!!!!

HELLO?????????

MY LOVE?????????

ARE YOU THERE?????



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values

According to the human life value calculator my life is worth $1,183,915. Isn't that nice? So next time someone says I look like a million bucks (which I don't hear very often), I'll say "Actually, I look like a million one hundred eighty three thousand nine hundred fifteen bucks." So there.

all about blogs

Not the most personal entry here right now (but see the one before and after this one for my own word)...... following is just a fun article about blogging so I thought it'd be appropriate to post it on my blog. So this is specially for any of my blog-readers who want to...waste...more time reading random stuff online (like me!).

I sure hope I'm not breaking any copyright laws by posting this. Oh well, I guess I do that every time I photocopy music. Wait. I mean, uh, I never photocopy music. And I'm sure none of you reading this do either.

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10 Things We Learned About Blogs
Radio had its golden age in the 1930s. In the 1950s, it was television's turn. Historians may well date the golden age of the blog from 2004—when Merriam-Webster.com's most searched-for definition was blog. How long can it last? Who knows? Here's what we discovered about the new medium this year
By CHRIS TAYLOR

Posted Sunday, December 19, 2004
Blogging Can Get You Fired
When Delta flight attendant Ellen Simonetti, 30—a leggy blond and self-styled "queen of the sky"—began her blog, she thought it would be fun to post pinup snapshots of herself in uniform. Delta wasn't amused and promptly fired her. Undaunted, Simonetti retitled the blog Diary of a Fired Flight Attendant and detailed her legal battle to get her job back.
GO TO: queenofsky.journalspace.com

Bloggers Get Scoops Too
After book editor Russ Kick read that the U.S. military was clamping down on press photos of coffins coming back from Iraq, he didn't just pen an angry rant on his blog, the Memory Hole. He filed a Freedom of Information Act request—and embarrassingly for the Pentagon, was mailed a CD from the Air Force with 361 coffin snaps, which he promptly posted. The national press, which hadn't thought to ask whether the military had pictures, beat a path to Kick's door.
GO TO: thememoryhole.org

Bloggers Keep News Alive
So your blog hasn't succeeded in getting national attention for your pet issue? Don't lose heart. Just blog, link and repeat. It worked for conservative bloggers like Glenn Reynolds of Instapundit, who trumpeted the Swift Boat Veterans for Truth's claims this summer, as well as for liberal blogs like Daily Kos, which investigated evidence that President Bush wore a wire in his first debate. Some of the issues had questionable merit, but persistent bloggers made the subjects tough to ignore. Say it enough times online, and someone is bound to hear you.
GO TO: Instapundit.com, dailykos.com

Bloggers Can Be Titillating
In May a blog graphically detailing the sex life of an anonymous Capitol Hill staff member prompted D.C.'s most intriguing game of guess-the-author since Primary Colors. Jessica Cutler, a.k.a. Washingtonienne, was later outed and fired by her boss, Ohio Republican Mike DeWine, for "inappropriate use of Senate computers." (Her site is not for kids.) In another sign of the times, her first postfiring interview was with Wonkette, another Washington blogger.
GO TO: washingtoniennearchive.blogspot.com, wonkette.com

Bloggers Can Be Fakers
Plain Layne, a highly personal blog supposedly belonging to a Minnesota lesbian named Layne Johnson that drew thousands of fans over 3 1/2 years before mysteriously disappearing, was revealed to be a hoax. Hundreds of fans helped track down the real author, Odin Soli, 35, a male entrepreneur from Woodbury, Minn. Later in the year, fake Bill Clinton and Andy Kaufman blogs became hits.
GO TO: plainlayne.dreamhost.com, billclintondailydiary.blogspot.com

Bloggers Make Money
Earn a living in your pajamas! Online ads (along with Google's automated ad server) allow popular bloggers to go pro. Joshua Micah Marshall of talkingpointsmemo.com, a political blog, says he makes $5,000 a month from banner ads—enough to hire a research assistant.
GO TO: talkingpointsmemo.com

Most Bloggers Are Women
Men may have taken the lead in the early (read: geeky) days of blogging, but that's not the case now. According to a survey of more than 4 million blogs by Perseus Development, 56% were created by women. More bad news for the boys: men are more likely than women to abandon their blog once it's created. Call blogging a 21st century room of one's own.
GO TO: blogsisters.blogspot.com

Candidates Love Blogs
O.K., so Howard Dean never wrote his blog. But his campaign workers posted a surprisingly intimate online diary of life on the road, and Dean had collected $20 million in contributions via the Internet alone by the end of January 2004. It didn't take long for other politicos to catch on. When New York attorney general Eliot Spitzer announced that he was running for Governor this month, he did so on his blog.
GO TO: blog.deanforamerica.com, spitzer2006.com

Pets Have Blogs Too
It started as an in-joke among feline-friendly bloggers: why not post pictures of their cats every Friday afternoon? Friday catblogging became a hit, and soon even NASA was playing along by posting pictures of the Cat's Eye nebula.
GO TO: carnivalofthecats.com

Anyone Can Do It
Blogs wouldn't be such a democratic medium if they weren't so easy to set up. The most popular service, Blogger, owned by Google, boasts features like push-button photoblogging. Microsoft has launched a trial version of its own blogging service.
GO TO: blogger.com, spaces.msn.com

hilarity

I just watched the blogbuddies(tm) party video from Erin. Quite fun. Many times I couldn't distinguish my real-time giggling from my giggling on the video. Being as a non-home-video-camera owner (for my WHOLE LIFE) I was enthralled to see this! My first thought while watching it was "We've gotta do that again!" My second thought was "Ohhhh Erin's gone." My third though was "We can't have a blogbuddies(tm) party without Erin!" My fourth thought was "That sucks." My fifth thought was "Ohhh now I'm sad." Erin-I miss you! I know we'll keep updated through our blogs, but feel free to email me too anytime you really want to talk.

The video was hilarious. We are so ridiculous. The funniest moment was our seemingly never ending laughter over the comment about computers giving birth. (those of you who weren't there--there was a context. Really. Shut up.) We are such dorks. And since 3 of the 5 of us blogbuddies(tm) are serious musical theatre dorks the random burstings into song are things I will treasure forever also! We sang a bit of Little Shop, Les Mis, hmmm and I'm sure others that I don't recall right now. Oh yeah, and I sang a bit of Sunset Boulevard, but I don't think anyone got it. Once again--there was a context. Really. Shut up. I love my blogbuddies(tm) Erin, Tanya, and David. And Mike too. Of course Mike. In a different way than I love the other blogbuddies(tm). I'm sure you understand.

I have more to say but I will do a new entry, since this one is devoted to the blogbuddies(tm) party.

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happy not sad

hi. i was just sitting here thinking about how i really do have lots of wonderful friends. i love these friends and hope they love me too. please remind me of this when i get in those awful wankerish funks and think i have no friends and nobody loves me except my family.

thanks.

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oldfriends/newfriends

Tonight I went out with my new friend Erin. Remember back to my very first blog entry ever when I referred to her as "my new friend Erin"? Well, now it has been nine months since then so I guess the title of new friend doesn't really apply anymore. But I definitely think of her as a good friend. We have lots of fun together and we are slowly learning lots of things about each other. I like growing friendships. It's cool when they just immediately explode into a deep friendship, but it's also fun (and usually longer lasting, in my experience) when they grow into a friendship. I hope someone knows what I mean by that.

While out with my new friend Erin we phoned my old friend Stefani. Apparantly she is a piano student again. What do you know. Anyway, it was so wonderful to talk with her. My life is so completely different than it was when I knew her; I suppose hers is also. It has been multiple lifetimes ago since we were close. At least that's the way it feels. How can it be multiple lifetimes when it's only been four or five years? I don't know. I guess college friendships do that to you. Warps time. I hope Stefani calls me. I gave her my phone number and email and Erin told her about our blogs. Stefani!!! Are you reading this? Don't be an anonymous "blogstalker"! (I just coined that term. I think.) If you read and don't comment that is what you will be--a blogstalker. Just like Peter and Sarah. Grrrrrrrrr.

:-)

Erin and I went seven bars tonight. A lot of bars without actually drinking all that much because three-THREE-of them were closed for private parties. And two closed just because it was Monday night. Wankers. But it was fun walking around downtown. It's been a while for me. It was cold. But nice. I actually didn't feel cold at all when we were walking around, but now that I am home wishing my heater would kick in I'm realizing how I just walked around downtown without a winter coat on. Hmm. Interesting. Aren't you glad I just told you all that.

Oh yeah, and we left the Black Sheep without paying for our drinks. We tried. Really. We did.

The police haven't found us yet. But in case they do we'll show them these photos (click on links below) and convince them that they already put us in jail once and don't need to again.

Erin Busted
Meagan Busted


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sunday blogging

I've noticed that I only feel motivated to write any sort of substantial blog entry on Sunday evenings. I wonder what's the deal with that? Well, I guess none of my blog entries are actually substantial. Some people get really deep on their blogs. Maybe I will someday.

Mike got home at 11:30 last night and left at 4:30 this afternoon. 17 hours. Oh boy. That is not much time to spend with your love. Especially since we were asleep from midnight-6:30 and at church from 7:30-1:00. But the time at church is good time together, even though it's been a bit frustrating lately due to some of the work with the sound design. It will pass. But right now it is a big fat stressor for Mike and that is not cool.

See that's how deep I am in this blog. "...and that is not cool."

I can't believe Mike was only home for 17 hours! I really don't mind this schedule of his--I'm not home all that much myself and I do enjoy the time alone when I'm there--it's just kind of mind boggling me to me that there are people who travel so much. I know there are many people in the world that have this same sort of career as Mike. I think I could do a career like that. I'd like it. At this point, I'd like any career that moves me away. Just for now. Just for now while things are so sad concerning CTD.

It's been bad. Things are really bad with... well all of it right now. A darkness. I don't mean to be overly dramatic, but I do know when things are just not right. Anyway, our show songs for a new season opened yesterday and it was wonderful. That is a good thing. A light thing. Not a dark thing. I finally got re-excited about this show and it went really well. I hope you all come see it. We were at the PAC yesterday but from now on it will be a dinner show at Summer Jo's and at Lithia Springs Resort Restaurant Verdant. Dinner theatre meaning goodbye to the intricate staging, good bye to the beautiful lighting design, goodbye to the attentive captive audience. Oh well. It's still great music. It's just stupid having to turn my head when certain people enter the room or turn my brain off from certain details. I am making no sense.

NEW TOPIC!!!!!!!!!!!

Desperate Housewives is on. :-)

S'mores Maker! We had Christmas at noon on Thursday. Weird, huh? My brother, his wife, and new baby ella were in town for just a few days and we won't see them on Christmas so I decided we should have Christmas while they're here. Except that I had no evenings free while they were here (because it was opening week), I had just a window from noon to 3. Random. It was very sweet and fun. We had soup and salad and bread and peppermint ice cream and tea. Not exactly festive foods, but that's not what it's all about. We had presents too! Hence, the paragraph heading "s'mores maker." That's what Peter and Sarah gave me. Isn't that the coolest present? Well, I had Mike's car (the one we've been wanting to sell for a month but haven't tried because it was so dirty) detailed for him. That's a pretty cool present. I suppose it would have been cooler if I'd cleaned it myself, wouldn't it? Anyway, that's not my point here. S'mores maker! Such a fun thing. We need to have another party so we can use it. I could use it on my own. As much as I enjoy being alone and have no hesitations about eating ice cream and champagne alone (mmmmm) I think making s'mores all alone would just be pathetic. And I am not pathetic.

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christmas lists

Blog Activity Time! Gather 'round the table, Kids! Bring your safety scissors and yummy paste!

I think we all should post our Christmas lists. Just for fun to share ideas and see what we all want. Not because we expect to get the things. Just a little excessive consumerism fun. You can comment on my blog with your list or just put it up on your own. At least all the "Blog Buddies"(tm) read each other's blogs.

Here's mine:

-anything from my wishlists at torrid.com, amazon.com, or potterybarn.com. I know. I am an online dorque.
-camera phone
-whatever the surprise is that mike ordered for me online that i'm not allowed to look at our online bank statement because it will give the surprise away.
-multi-disc CD burner for new song office
-my friendship with J.R.P. back
-wall art for the end of my hallway
-tabletop cotton candy maker. they exist. really. i saw it at target a few years ago. now wouldn't that be fun at parties. we'd have cotton candy, smores, and fondue.
-bombay sapphire

well, i think that's enough for now.

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links!

Look! I created even more links for my sidebar! It's so exciting that David showed us how to do this. I looked into the template and, through much trial and error, just copied what he'd done there. Yipee! I'll try to change these ocassionally to keep it interesting. I just couldn't think of anymore links for right now.

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joe dirt

Hi. I'm watching the movie Joe Dirt right now. I think maybe I should be embarrassed by that. But I'm not. What I am embarrassed by is the fact that I think I might be spelling embarrassed wrong. One R or two? I don't really know. The other thing I'm embarrassed about is that I am watching this ridiculous movie instead of working on songs for a new season. We open on Saturday. Saturday!!! Five rehearsal days left! And six (including tonight) rehearsal days for myself to learn the trouble spots in my accompaniment! What am I doing???!!! I need one of my blog buddies(tm) to call me (or anyone else) and tell me to get my lazy self out of my office chair and get to work. Friday night at the CTD dinner both Michele and James said lots of really really unbelievably nice things about me and the work I've done for the company. I was a bit shocked, to say the least. Pleased, of course, but also shocked. I've been quite firm (some would say mean I suppose) and distant lately due to the...um...what shall we call it...Les Mis frustrations. Maybe they're scared I'm going to leave since I've been so mad lately and they thought they should give me some public attention. Man, that's so sarcastic of me. I mean, I do agree with the nice things they said about me! It just seemed so...excessive. I was pleased and embarrassed and entertained and having fun and confused and, yes, still pissed off all at the same time. Whoa. Too many emotions.

Warning, subject change.

I took Mike to the airport an hour ago. I am torn between liking these Sunday night flights (because he doesn't have to leave the house at 4 a.m. Monday) and not liking them (because that's one less evening we have together). When he first started traveling a lot, with Lithia about a year ago, I would always take him to the airport on those early Monday mornings. Somewhere along the line (I think it was during Little Shop/Fantasticks/Sweet & Hot) he started taking a cab because he didn't want me to have to wake up so early. How in the world did such an amazingly sweet and wonderful man choose to marry me? Anyway, maybe he was concerned for his safety also. While driving him to the airport on those early Monday mornings I'd try really hard not to fully wake up because I wanted to go back to bed once I got home from dropping him off. I'd purposely not wipe the sleep out of my eyes and anytime he'd start a conversation I'd say "sshhhhh" so I wouldn't have to think. Understandable that he'd be scared to have me drive while in that state. I think he's scared to drive with my anways. When I'm fully awake, I mean.

By the way, so far Joe Dirt is a really stupid movie. I can't believe I've been watching it for 42 minutes already. Not worth keeping me from working...

I hope Mike continues to write in his blog. It's fun to read about the various locations he's in. We talk on the phone at least once a day, but it's interesting to me to see what he says in his writings too, to hear what's on his mind, no matter how random. That's the fun thing about blogs. You don't have to have a specific goal. You just write. And people can choose to read it or not. Most of us have a bit of voyeurism in us and we love to read blogs no matter how mundane the writings are. I know I do.

Uh oh. I just brought some ice cream to my office. That is not the uh oh. The uh oh is that our stupid spoons (stupid yet stylish, and isn't that what really matters when it comes to tableware) are really top heavy and it fell out of my bowl and put a huge chocolate stain on the beige carpet. Where's the oxyclean? Yes, it's the peppermint ice cream we had last night at our Blog Buddies(tm) party last night. Mmmmmmmm.

I think I'm going to give up on Joe Dirt now and go hang out with my piano for a while. As I should have done 64 minutes ago.

love Meagan

p.s. be sure to check out my links! the one on blogging voyeurism is especially fun!

blog buddies (tm)

Well!! We had our blog buddies (tm) party! It was fun. I don't know if such a small group can legally be called a party, but that's what we're calling it. Me, Mike, Erin, David, Tanya. A new combination of people for a Del Mar Gathering. A good combination. Let's do it again.

Right now, Erin and I are looking at the video we took of our fun-ness tonight. I know you are thinking "what dorks...they videotaped themselves?" But you just be quiet. See, here's the deal. David started this idea of a blog buddies (tm) party in honor of Erin because she is moving away soon. So it is also a goodbye party, even though we aren't focusing on the goodbye part of it. But that is the reason for the video camera.

Also did you notice the new links on my blog!?? David gave us all a tutorial on how to do that. Well, okay, it started out as a tutorial on how to do that, but Tanya, Erin, and I whined enough so that he'd just do it for us. We don't really care to know how to do it ourselves, as long as it's there.

BROTHER!!!!!! Are you out there??? Why haven't you commented yet? Pete-oh?!??!?

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familial-arities

I told my brother about my blog next week. The first family member I've invited into this "blog buddies"(tm) circle of ours. Much thanks to David for letting me steal his (tm). Well, I guess he's not letting me since I never asked. But I'm sure he'd say yes. Even though it is trademarked. Anyway, told my brother about my blog. Big step--letting a family member into these random writings. It'll be fun. If he ever reads it...grrrrrr. Peter!! Are you reading this?? He hasn't commented at all so I don't know. Perhaps he is one of those stalker types that just read blogs and never comment. I know those types well. In fact, I am one of those types. Hahahahahaha. So I wonder if I've written anything that I would be mortified to have my big brother read. I don't think so. It's all pretty mellow. Boring, even. Hopefully he'll be drawn in to my world and get addicted! That's be fun. Peter's a few years older than me and we've never been exceptionally close. We are an amazing family. By saying we've never been close, that should not immediately imply we're distant. We're not at all. When we are together it's immediately comfortable, natural, and just...family. He and I have never like just hung out together as friends, but we do have fun when family reasons bring us together. Am I making any sense right now? I'm having trouble even making intelligent sentences. What am I doing. Why am I blogging right now? It's 12:49 a.m. which in my world doesn't really mean anything but I know to the general public that's very late. Most recently, however, that is late for me; lately I've been sleeping from midnight to 8 a.m. It's nice. Lots of sleep. I'm still putting off songs for a new season (my current show--the musical revue Shane and I are creating and opens in ONE WEEK!). MOTIVATION: COME!!!! Tomorrow night we have this special fundraiser event (everything with CTD's a fundraiser these days *&@^+#$*-) that I think will be very good. 20 performers from past, present and hopefullyfuture shows. It's been crazy organizing every one, but it's been fun reminding myself of these songs. I'm looking forward to it. I'm also looking forward to wearing the skirt I bought at Torrid forever ago and still haven't worn. This is like stream of consciousness writing today. Babble babble babble....rabble rabble rabble. If you are still reading at this point--I apologize. And express my awe of you for your persistence. You probably keep reading thinking it's going to get better, or that I'm going to say something important. aYou might as well give up. I'm not even making the effort to put in links this time. I promise I'll make it up to you with my next entry. It will be the most fantastic blog entry I've ever done. Hmm, I was just about to say something else and promptly forgot. Where is my brain?? Wait. Don't answser that. That reminds me of a T-Shirt I have that says "Why would I need beauty sleep?" I love wearing it however I'm always slightly worried someone (stranger or friend) might feel the need to answer that question and tell me all the reasons I need beauty sleep. And that would be mean. Hey! Are we having a party Saturday night? What was the final decision on that? Or do I need to make the decision? Mike, do you still want to go to the musical Saturday night? I think I'm going to go both Saturday and Sunday, just because it will be so fun. This is the musical at New Song, it's pretty much a kids thing, but there are adults in it too. It's very huge scale by New Song standards. I had nothing to do with it (beyond my usual church secretary publicity duties) except to loan a strobe light and musicstand lights, all from CTD. New Song has loaned so much equipment, and Meagan-time to CTD throughout the last couple years that they are so fine with reciprocating. Anyway, party? Let's talk. What do you guys think? It'd be a way casual thing. With our favorite foods like wine and cheese and chocolates and strawberries. Can you get strawberries in winter? Well, if they'r like $5 a pint I don't want them. Peppermint ice cream. Mmmm. Mmmmmmaybe we should have Mmmmmartinis instead of wine. Dinner? SHould we do dinner? Oh, wait, no. No, because if Mike and I go to the musical at New Song first we woiuldn't be able to start it until 8:30. It's now Friday I guess we should decide soon if we're going to do it. Are you still reading? Who's actually made it through these run on sentences, sentence fragments, anti-paragraphatic, mispselled words? You rock. Good night.

love Meagan

indulgence

Guess what I'm doing right now?

Watching Extreme Makeover:Home Edition while eating Tillamook Extra Sharp Vintage White Cheddar with Kashi crackers and drinking Valley View Cabernet with a Pure Ambition Purifying Facial Clay Masque on my face! How's that for indulgence? Should I be embarrassed for sharing this?

And I'm emailing with Erin. I hope she emails me back. I hope I didn't say too much.

I hope the people who expect me to be working right now aren't reading my blog. Oh well, it's not like they pay me.

Oh yeah, and I'm researching online trying to figure out how to be a bone marrow donor right now, too. That's not totally indulgent. But it'd be a good thing. I'll tell you more about it if it comes to be.

Will someone tell me how to post photos on my blog? I went to blogger's hello site and registered and all, but still couldn't do it. Grrrrr. I'm supposed to be good at this stuff, being a Generation-Xer or Yer or whatever it is my age group is. I don't even have a digital camera, but I have a few photos people have emailed me that I'd like to put on here. Like of my brother's baby ella! and of poco! and of myself! well, that last one's not quite so exciting.

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p.s. aren't my links impressive? Not particularly humorous, but definitely accurate! One of these companies should pay me for these endorsements!

no mercy

I've been bugging Mike mercilessly about his blog abandoment. He teases us with three introductory entries in one day and then nothing more for a whole week. Grrrrr!!!! Anyway, he's been stranded in Kentucky all weekend. Kentucky! Geez, you'd think he could find things to write about, if for no other reason than to occupy his mind and keep him from picking up the southern accent. Especially since he spent the whole prior week in Texas. Mike said he considered going to visit a church today but in his random driving around he didn't find any besides the big huge scary very southern stereotype mega-churches that operate like billion-dollar-corporations. He even went into one this morning but left because everyone was dressed in formal suits and dresses and he felt out of place in his jeans. I'm not saying that there's anything inherently wrong about that; it's just that it's so so very different from what we're used to at New Song and also such potential for weirdness and/or lack of personal connections when you have 20,000 people there.

(I'm trying to be as cool as Erin and her links. It's fun. I don't know if I have the patience though to keep searching for unusual ones. I think I've done all right so far...)

I was looking back through my blog titles and found it comical how I didn't really do any entries July through September. There is a very good reason for that. Les Miserables. Have I told you yet about how that show totally consumed and changed my life? Yes, I'm pretty sure I have. Multiple times. I should be over it by now, but I'm not. James and Shane keep referring to next year's show (most likely Chicago , go to the website and vote for something else, please :-) and are starting to plan for it. I am still in a spot where I don't even want to consider it. I cannot. I cannot imagine even preparing to do something so huge right now. Les Mis closed over a month ago and I am still dealing with it. And I'm sick of it. Our current show songs for a new season is so wonderful and sweet. Shane and I created this musical revue and we're quite pleased with it. However, at this point, and because I am still so pissed off at the remaining Les Mis mess that I don't even want to do any work with it. Which is sad and totally my problem that I'm trying hard to hide from the cast. (ooh, do any of them read this...?? I don't think so.) Our cast rocks--Shane, Tony, Barry, Kelley, Marian, Sonie, Julia, Heather--you are all so awesome. And almost all of you are working so hard, we're so proud of you. Anyway, anytime I'm at home I just want to be home. I don't want to work on music preparation or practice. We open in less than two weeks. Pray I'll get motivated before then! I really need to work on this music and make some arrangements to add guitar and percussion.

Well, that was a tangent. I'm done for now. Maybe later today I'll write all the other things I'd planned on writing.

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mike-mo-my-love

Mike has a blog. Check it out! He created it a long time ago, just so he could comment on other people's blogs without being anonymous. He just finally got around to writing in it--3 whole entries!! All in one day!! But, none since then. So sad. :-(

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p.s. I had a Big Mac for the first time tonight. Weird. Too wet.